Addiction

by Dave B , Alamogordo New Mexico, Sunday, October 12, 2014, 12:04 (3700 days ago)

I never really found myself to be an addictive type of person, but I guess I was wrong. I have a computer addiction, in particular, I am addicted to Facebook, and as a consequence, I feel I am angry all the time, and am getting to the point where I don't like very many people. I get so angry at liberals, I want to shake some sense into them. I tell myself I can't walk away because of family, friends, the connection to my Air Force brethren, yet it contributes to my over weight issues, my anger issues, in fact, how lazy I have become. It is a computer thing, back in the 90s it started with sixgunner.com, I would spend at least an hour every day reading what everyone had to say, then I started discovering other forums, it fed other addictions, I stopped doing and enjoying things, and started reading about them, it became easier to read about stuff, than it was to do stuff. I had to have a new gun, new truck, new 4 wheeler, new Jeep, new camo, because they were all going to make me a better hunter, yet I still suck, I suck because I don't spend the time glassing, learning patterns, learning how to stalk. These are all my problems, like alcohol or cigarettes, the choice is mine. It isn't that I want to be ignorant of what is going on in the world, or that I don't want to interact with my family, I just know that before the internet, I had a 30'06 rifle, a muzzleloader, 2 shotguns, and a Ruger Blackhawk in 45 Colt, and I was happy. I'm sorry for the long vent session, and for releasing the demons in my head upon you unsuspecting souls.

Dave